Don't wanna be an american idiot.

Americans have always had an ambivalent attitude toward intelligence. When they feel threatened, they want a lot of it, and when they don't, they regard the whole thing as somewhat immoral.

-Vernon A. Walters I read this and then I took a Tickle IQ Test: Your IQ score is: You scored 140 on Tickle's IQ test. This means that based on your answers, your IQ score is between 130 and 140. Most people's IQs are between 70 and 130. In fact, 95% of all people have IQs within that range. 68% of people score between 80 and 120. The following chart to your right, shows these percentages and where your IQ score is on that scale. How do you relate to other IQ test takers?

Yeah, sometimes I take an IQ test to feel better about myself. Although, knowing that over 95% of Americans are dumber than me scares the holy living crap outta me.

After careful consideration...

I decided that my boy issue requires a three pronged approach.

A- Secretly I'm hoping I can sleep my way to an A in Anatomy, therefore this is why I wonder about the professor. Oh, and he's pretty cute, too.

B-I am so insecure about my appearance right now that I'm grasping at anything to prove to myself that it's not that I'm unattractive, my husband has something wrong with him because we haven't ....um... you know.... since before thanksgiving. Which I am good with, because I'm busy. And not at all insecure about my appearance, which I have not heard one compliment on since before I was married. So I am reading things into the expressions of 19 year old man-boys.

C- I talk to the kid from my 2 classes because I have two classes with him. It's not like we discuss our personal lives... we talk about algebra and physiology.


I think I am thinking too much, but not about the right things (like homeostasis for instance.)

Boy Crazy

I find it telling that although I am married, overweight, unattractive and a mom that when I look at my Anatomy & Physiology professor (who is 4 years younger than me and has his Ph. D) all I can think about is what he would be like in bed.

And in Speech yesterday, some 19 year old athlete decided to look me in the eye during his speech, and I found myself wondering if he did that because he finds me attractive, or so unattractive I am the least intimidating person in the class, or if I just remind him of his mom.

It is also telling that the person I speak with the most as school is an 18 year old boy who I am taking two classes with who is going for the same degree I am (and therefore is in competition with me for one of 18 spots.)

I must mull on this for a while before I decide if it's telling me something about my marriage, my self esteem, or my educational choices.

Carry on.

F*** ANATOMY AND PHYSIOLOGY

Walked outta that lab today feeling like I at least got a B on the test.

Then I got a cup of coffee and sat down, flipped open my lab manual and looked at all the pictures of the things I just looked at.

F***** wrong tissue types
F****** wrong functions
F**** wrong locations

I am highly self-delusional. If I got a D+, I will be shocked and amazed. I tanked that stupid test soooo badly.

I can't even remember taking my math test today, I am so not with it.

Why am I even doing this to myself. John was OK just being poor and me staying home with the kids. I could have maybe gotten used to it.

I need to go lay down now.

I'm a sucky sucker.

Yeah, I suck at updating right now. Too much happening. It seems when I have content to post I'm too busy dealing with the content to post.
So I'm stealing a few minutes from homework time to tell you how completely I've screwed myself over academically.

I am taking Human Anatomy and Physiology, Intermediate Algebra, and Intro Public Speaking. It's only 12 credits, but I think all of my instructors had a meeting about making me fail because here is my schedule for next week:

Monday: No Classes
Tuesday: Regular classes, no lab
That evening I'm chairing a park association meeting about new property lines, in which I have to try and get each of my neighbors to cough up about $1000.

WEdnesday: Algebra Exam
Speech (as in, giving one)
LAb practical (which means looking at about 50 different slides and
identifying them- tissue type, location, function) FROM MEMORY


That's just the first half of the week. I want to die.


That's all for now. Carry on.